Im Useless~ 我没用~

T.T
wat problem are me nw??
do knw~
i just feel im moody...
feel wanna cry out as loud~ T.T
i really beh tahan le~
i really damn angry!!!
hw cum a staff work till like tat???
can serious in ur work?? ><

story start!!!

today~ i went to lowyat interview my 2nd job..
work as pc fair for 3days...
so i wake up in the early morning...den...
11am was out~
eat~ while waiting to interview...
11am morning...someone call me....
den i accept call~ xxx said...
"Quenee~u can work later at 2pm??? XXX kenot cum...n tat malay ppl din cum aso~"
but i hv to interview n training later...so i said ok but i will be late...
xxx answer me nvm~
den i worry xxx alone so i told her i go b4 7pm lo..den ok...fine~

around 1pm...when i having my breakfast/lucnh....
XXX sms me said...i work at 2pm..
u no nid cum le...den i said...im ok de~ i try my best lo...
ok...fine too~

ok...after i finish all my stuff back home 6pm...
i rush all the thing tat i need to do~
ready to out~
den i received a call from FFF....
xxx said..."Quenee arr~ u out le ma??"
i reply xxx with rush n busy voice..."yayaa...i ready to out le~"
den xxx answer me..."err..u no need cum le~ KKK say de..."
me : "ohh...ok........"(face has been change)
duu.......................(end the call)

Madeh!!!!!!! 我赶死赶命的回家准备一切!!!!!!
为什么不早点告诉我??????
你知道我为了怕你们很累~又一个人做....
就答应你们~
怎知道在我赶完了~出门前一通电话说你不用来了~!!!!
顿时...那种感觉很讨厌~!!!!!
很气!!!!!! 可是却又想哭~!!!!!!
我知道这不能怪谁....对不起~
请让我发一发泄!!!!!

可能最近我真的很多事让我烦恼了~
对不起...请原谅我对你发脾气~
我很怕 T.T 很担心 T.T
很怕因为这样的脾气少了朋友...
也怕因为这原因让我朋友们担心伤心...
可是...真的很对不起....
我也不想 T.T 可是我就是这样 T.T

对不起...我不能守自己对你的承诺..."不哭"...
可是无论什么事我都会哭...
可能哭就是我唯一发泄的地方... T.T
对不起...又让你失望了....
我自己知道我没用...


T.T